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Hi ! I’m Astry and I just spent the worst month of my life. I was born on October 14th, I am 22 and this nightmare happened the day after my birthday. But in the evening, everything was normal : my mother said goodnight to me and my father was on night shift at his work. I went to my bedroom, I finished my homework for college. But my mom, as soon as I went to my room, started crying. I didn’t know why. When I went to see her, she told me it was nothing, only a work stress. So I went back to my bedroom.

In the night,while I was dreaming, a blue eyed girl, with long hair down to her feet and her skin so white that it looked like it was transparent, stood in front of me. She said : “Hello, I’m Lilith. Your family hurt me. I’ve been haunting them for sixty years. The curse is that every person of your family who has just turned twenty-two, will have to die in a different way, every day during one month. On your desk, a book will appear ; every day, a new page will indicate a death you will have to give to yourself. If you don’t do that, you will definitively die.”

When I woke up in the morning, I took my breakfast and I prepared my bag. Suddenly I saw the book on my desk. On the cover there was marked “1 death 1 day”. I felt frightened when I realized my dream was real. I had to die in order to survive.

First Day : car accident

I didn't know what to do. If it was real, I should come back the day after to die again. But if it was not real, I was going to die. However, the book appeared although it was not there yesterday and many members of my family died at the age of 22 years old apart from my mother. My aunt died when she was 22 years old, my grandmother too, after having her two children. That is why I decided to believe my dream was real.

My first death was a car crash. I didn't go to school that day : I had to die.                                                                         

I said good-bye to my mother, and I was really stressed out. I was thinking she knew too : after all, she went through 22. I don’t know if she felt what I was going to do, that I was not going home tonight, that I was not going to school and nevertheless she acted as if everything was normal. When she was 22 she had to be like me : she had to die without knowing why sixty years ago our family was cursed.

I got in my car, I knew where I had to go. I didn’t want to hurt anyone. I was in front of the wall of the big square. There was nobody in the square, everyone was at work. I was scared. I had to do it. I didn’t want to see it. I waited, an hour went and the car was stopped. I thought. I cried. I laughed nervously. I went through all the emotions. I opened my eyes, looked at the wall in front of me, turned on the engine, slowly advanced and then accelerated. I turned at the last moment out of fear, unfortunately or rather luckily for me, my car bumped into the wall and… nothing more… black hole…

She came back. Lilith. "Hi! You made it. Bravo! Good luck for the next ones." I shouted loudly at her : "Why… What did you do this to my family?" but she was already gone.

15^th day : Gun

A gun!!!!!!!! But what was I going to do. It was easy to find a weapon in America nowadays I don’t know how I was going to do that.

After a score of gun magazine I was finally able to buy a cheap weapon. The other days it was easy anyway it was more of an accident like the time I had to hang myself and I accidentally dropped the stool. But now with a pistol… I can’t be discouraged after 15^th day.

I put the weapon on my mouth. It was the only way that I could do that without seing  it. I’m in my room alone, the gun in my mouth. I thought a little more. With all the deaths I had suffered, I was wondering how I could still be scared. It was strange that my family was the only one who could speak of death because we actually lived it. I was getting more and more scared. I was going to do that again.

Bangggggggggg

I heard the long, dull noise.

The last day : drowning

Finally !!!!!! THE LAST DAY !!!!  Drowning. It’s easy. Let’s go to the sea. An hour’s train ride to drown myself. Great, my moral is back.

Bye bye the world. See you tomorrow. What if it’s just a dream ? I would have dreamed of my death ?!? No, that’s not possible. I’m just over thinking. I dive without taking a breath, I cling to a rock at the bottom of the water. I can no longer breathe like the time I had to choke. I see fuzzy and I see nothing just a black background.

The next day everything went back to normal. Back to college. Nobody knew me. It was just as if the world had stopped spinning for me, waiting for me.

She appeared for a few seconds to tell me that it was unfair and that she would come back to haunt my family again. I still don’t know why, but she must have a good reason.

Eugénie DUPUY